”When you go through a trial, the sovereignty of God is the pillow in which to lay your head.” - Charles Spurgeon
Although reformed theology is making a comeback within Christian circles, it is still one of the most controversial and highly debatable forms of theology. If you were to ask someone who views scripture through a reformed lens, a vast majority will say that they were angrily opposed to this doctrine before humbling themselves to accept it.
I would love to say that it was a rational conclusion that I came to when I accepted this view of scripture. But that would give too much responsibility to myself. That would actually go against every belief in the reformed camp. We don’t come to the belief in reformed theology. God is the one who opened our eyes to it.
“For God, who said, ‘Let light shine out of darkness,’ has shown in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.”2 Corinthians 4:6
That is not to say that the reformed or Calvinistic doctrine is without rational thought but that is an ongoing conversation too lengthy to cover here. Both sides of the free-will/Armenian and Calvinistic isle have many rational arguments and scripture to support their views. What changed me was how I saw myself.
“It is only against the pitch blackness of the night can we see the glory of the stars. And it is only against blackness of man’s radical depravity that we can believe to see the glories of the gospel.”Paul Washer
I used to think I was a good person. I used to believe that I was clean. It wasn’t until my eyes were opened to the truth of my depravity did I see just how dirty I was. Only until we see God for what He truly is – in all His true glory – can we begin to see just how much we needed Him to lift up us out of the filth of life.